If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word is not in us.
- 1 John 1:8-10
First, is there any such thing as ‘light’ confession? We bring it all to God, but my confession is that I have been extremely busy reading this year, at present 94 books total – 31 inspirational. I have been extremely busy preparing for something in October. I have been somewhat busy doing other things. And I have failed to take notes while reading my inspirational books.
Among the inspirational books that I have read since the first of July, since failing to take notes, are (not including all):
Morley’s How God Made Men
Robert Wolgemuth’s Lies Men Believe
Max Lucado’s Traveling Light
Beth Moore’s Breaking Free
Charles H. Spurgeon’s All of Grace
David Jeremiah’s A Life Beyond Amazing
There were others. I took notes through half of Mere Christianity by C. S. Lewis and one or two notes from Billy Graham’s Answers to Life’s Problems, but for the most part, I just got rushed.
It really started with David Jeremiah’s A Life Beyond Amazing. I finished that one while on ‘vacation,’ our wild trip to Minnesota and then Tennessee. I was riding and reading while my wife gave me an occasional break from driving. She prefers gaps between cities and heavy congestion areas. In other words, she drives through less crowded country stretches of interstate. As a result, I did not have a notepad or pen handy. I know, excuses!
When the Spurgeon and Moore books followed, I was so overcome by what they wrote and how they turned a phrase, I thought that I could return to the book, blindly flip through the book to a random page and then write a post about what I found there. Charles Spurgeon wrote, a century and a half ago, a lot that I used when witnessing to people recently. It brought back so many memories. Beth Moore’s book was a pouring out of her heart, beyond a simple Bible study. I felt the emotions beyond the lessons learned.
Including the Jeremiah book, I was spiritually moved in all three books, but to sit down and write a couple of posts with quotes from the books? Maybe the thought about closing my eyes and pointing might actually work. I may have used the Spurgeon book a couple of times. I know of once.
In the meantime, I have had bouts of writer’s block. God always comes through with one inspiration or another. I have been in a mode of write it and post it within 24 hours, 48 hours tops. There may be typos, and I pray that the theology isn’t too far off or that I have not said something in bad taste – not seeing alternate ways that someone could read something. I might read it differently after the post has sat for a day or two.
If I had only taken notes, I would have a treasure trove of ideas. The result of doing things last minute increases the feeling of being rushed and busy. Every time that I get a day or two ahead, something comes up. A doctor’s appointment, for example.
All of this sounds like a trivial “confession” and the reason for the word “light” being used. But what is the true root cause of needing to confess? Who have I hurt other than myself?
I have been too busy to give God the time that He deserves during the day.
Have you ever noticed that when you skip reading your e-mail for a day or two, you end up with so many e-mails that you cannot read them all? And when most of those e-mails are links to other people’s posts that they poured their heart into, that is just that much more reading. When I take shortcuts in my reading and note taking, it means that I am too busy in other aspects also.
Now one thing that seems to just happen, that I cannot seem to avoid during a busy day, is naps. I pull myself away from the keyboard while I am still on a roll. I think Hemingway said that if you step away when you are having writer’s block, you will be still stuck with writer’s block upon your return. He suggested to stop for the day when on a roll, with a lot of thoughts flowing. So, when I take a break mid-afternoon to check the mailbox, get some water with ice and one of those flavor packets or flavor squirt bottles, and check tomorrow’s forecast on the weather report, I sit in a comfy chair and wake up an hour later. The problem is that my body screams that it wants to stay asleep. And as I work, it is at half pace for a long while.
I am still using way too many words to say that my time with God has been the ultimate casualty in my busyness. I might not be alone.
So, maybe, just maybe, anything that interferes with a strengthening of the relationship between me and Jesus in not a ‘light’ sin and the confession of that sin is not ‘light’ either.
Lord, please forgive me.
Soli Deo Gloria. Only to God be the Glory.