These things happened to them as examples and were written down as warnings for us, on whom the culmination of the ages has come. So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall! No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
- 1 Corinthians 10:11-13
“’Welcome, child,’ he said.
‘Aslan,’ said Lucy, ‘you’re bigger.’
‘That is because you are older, little one,’ answered he.
‘Not because you are?’
‘I am not. But every year you grow, you will find me bigger.’”
- C. S. Lewis, Prince Caspian
Have you ever had one of those days, weeks, months, when you took a misstep at every turn? Okay, sometimes, when you feel sorry for yourself, you slip into massive hyperbole and exaggerate how rotten you really are, but the point is that there are times when you become susceptible to temptation. I think mine come from times of busyness, stress, and fatigue. Especially when I get that particular trifecta. And lately, I have written about all three of those.
Then, a quote that I have used before popped up on my computer screen, as I try to start my “computer morning” with a C. S. Lewis quote each day. I hardly read the quote, since I have read it many times before. I saw “Welcome, child, … Aslan … bigger.” And my response was “Yep, I have not been growing in the midst of this latest barrage by Satan. I need a bigger God.”
Don’t get me wrong. In my study of science and the universe, I can conceive of God being as infinite as a human brain can imagine. That is, a brain trapped in time and space. But I think each of us loses sight, maybe for just a moment, that God cares deeply for us as individuals. He cares about the minutia.
I have joked that since my hair is falling out that God is getting tired of counting all the hair on my head and He needs a break. But do I, myself, count the hairs on my head? No. And by the way, I went to our monthly prayer meeting a couple of weeks ago. Do not stare at that stranger in the mirror of the restroom who is wearing a mask. Because the mask covers the facial features, the image in the mirror highlights the top of the head and the thinning of the hair is much more noticeable – downright shocking. I might count the hairs on my ears, not in my ears, but the ones on the edge of my ears that rub and tickle and irritate. But there are too many hairs, even with so many that are now gone, for me to count the hairs on my head.
So, when I get full of myself and think ill of someone else – never taking action on it, but thinking it – I forget that God placed that person in my life to teach me something, probably about forgiveness. When my wife forgets something and she gets angry at me because she is frightened by her forgetfulness, God is probably teaching me the one thing I have the most trouble with … patience. When I get two hours of deep sleep and four hours of tossing and turning and finally giving up trying to go back to sleep, God may be telling me that I have things to do and I do not need more than those two hours … for today at least.
We all need a bigger God, and He is bigger, if we just rely on Him more. We need a bigger God, and He is bigger, if we care to peak behind the curtain and seek Him.
He is bigger when we stumble, for He cares for us. He is bigger when we sin, because He has forgiven and forgotten the sin – so, don’t bring that one up again. He forgave you the first time. He is bigger because when we rely on Him fully, He can prevent calamity. And when in the midst of calamity, He is bigger, because His shoulders to cry on are the most comforting this world has ever known. He is bigger, because each time you take a walk with Him, you get stronger.
I am in need of a bigger God right now. And God is bigger. All my praise goes to Him.
Soli Deo Gloria. Only to God be the Glory.