This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.
- 1 John 4:10
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
- Romans 5:8
“It is the greatest marvel that ever will be – that he who is God over all stooped so low as this. I can understand his stooping to poverty and being a carpenter. I can understand his stooping to hunger and thirst. I can even understand his stooping to death. But that he should bear our sins – this is the greatest stoop of all. How must the Lord Jesus have loved us that he did not disdain to hear even the enormous burden of our sin?”
- Charles H. Spurgeon, from his sermon notes
I have only done this a couple of times, repeated quotations for a Bible Study lesson, since starting the Thursday morning Bible studies, but this Charles Spurgeon quote caused me to think of something that made me squirm and feel deep remorse.
The Scriptures say that the sacrifice by Jesus was sufficient for all, but not all will accept it. Jesus sacrificed Himself for us while we were sinners. Jesus showed great love for us, in that He died for us.
But when I re-read the Scriptures and I saw this quote, I imagined Jesus, just for a nanosecond of the time He was on the cross, reliving my sin. The Scripture says that He carried our burden on the cross, but did Jesus feel the temptation of a dirty sinful pleasure and then the remorse, over and over again? Did He get that intimate with each of our sins while He suffered and died in our place?
Then, although I know I will stumble once more, I have to think, “If I love Him as much as I say that I do, would I ever wish for Jesus to have even more pain on my behalf?”
I have no Biblical basis for this thought, but Jesus wants an intimate relationship with each of us. While we are limited, Jesus is not, and to what depths does that intimacy go? Did He see the unclean thought and say, “I die so that thought can be washed away, and that bit of anger when someone cut you off in traffic, and that time when you should have been studying your Bible, but you took a nap. I die so that each of those sins can be washed away”?
If so, then oh, what pain I have caused my Savior. And, oh, how I could never repay such a debt. I can only try to live more like Jesus and trust God as the Holy Spirit leads me.
Soli Deo Gloria. Only to God be the Glory.